4th Day of Fasting

i don't know how many people are actually reading my entries about fasting, but i like to write them down so i can look back and remember how i felt.

last night i started to feel a bit itchy on my face, and my throat felt a bit sore. during the night i didn't sleep well, and i woke up at about 5 am and felt incredibly weak and thirsty, like how it feels when you have the flu. in the morning i had a couple glasses of lemonade, and then went back to sleep until 2 pm. when i got up again, i felt better but still flu-like. i read that usually on the 4th day, the detoxification process happens more drastically. It's common to get rashes or cold symptoms as the toxins are eliminated (the body is fighting off the toxins as it would fight off disease).

last night was interesting because i felt a lot of fears and anger, and for the first time was able to look at them objectively as thoughts that enter into my body and mind. i realized i can choose to release the negative emotions right away instead of storing them in my body. i felt a lot of instinctual fears - fear of people being angry at me, fear of starving, being sick, even dying. i know that i wasn't going to die last night, but i was aware of how strongly my body's survival mode can kick in, in order to protect itself. i felt i was being challenged strongly by my own self, and had to be very self-aware in order to get through the night. in that way, it was a strange night, but extremely powerful. and not to get too into the graphic details of my bowel movements, but i do believe i'm eliminating a lot of old crap that has been sitting inside me for a long time.

i've decided to make my fast only 5 days long, so tomorrow will be my last true day of fasting before i ease-out into other fruit juices and vegetables. but we'll see how i feel tomorrow, i may want to continue. i know it is recommended to do 10 days, but i don't know if i'm ready for it yet. i will try the 10 days another time, maybe at the end of the summer.